Here's another "today's view from our mobile office." Have you noticed I like to park and work near water -- particularly moving water and more particularly waterfalls? I find water very calming to see and even more so if I can hear it. It also helps me work productively on something that requires significant attention and focus, like writing. Today I was triggered into an angry, hypomanic mood. The event that triggered me would have made anyone mad, but I got the anger with truly racing thoughts about what I should have said or done, what I will say or do,and all the incidents in both recent and ancient history where this person has treated me and others in a similar way -- not to mention crushing pressure in my chest.
- I asked the other person involved whether their intention was truly as I perceived it. (It was.)
- I calmly left the scene to avoid unnecessary escalation
- I did a quick inventory of my functioning and realized I was very distracted, had racing thoughts, and my anger was escalating rather than subsiding.
- I fought against the racing angry thoughts and worked on breathing.
- I did a mental search for things under my control that might help.
- I decided to pick up some reasonably healthy snack food and drive to a nearby waterfall.
- I spoke to my therapist briefly about how to handle the situation when I go back into it tomorrow. That helped me control the thoughts since I was able to decide what I will do.
- I did a few quick things from my minivan (my mobile office) that might help others, including writing this post.
Not only am I feeling much better, but also, as your can see above, I got the bonus of having a Great Blue Heron join me after I calmed down. Better than a gold star!